Lather, Rinse, Repeat

As is the norm, I am burning the candle at both ends. In fact, I have been doing this for most of my life. Sometimes I am up for it, and then inevitably after a while aflame, I start to burn-out.  I am in the middle of a burn-out phase, which is never fun. These phases often can last just a few days, or they can last for weeks, and while I think I know how to avoid or minimize this burn-out, it is certainly something that is easier said, than done.  It is also a bit poetic to me that with age I have learned these anti-burn-out secrets, but find I lack the zeal and energy sometimes to actually take the best action to avoid it. Well, in all honesty, at the ripe youthful age of 37, my current fitness level, which is poor, may have more to do with it.

The older I have gotten, the less efficient, and less healthy I have become. I am trying to find the proper motivation to push through this and actually get my but thin again, but to date, it has not happened consistently.  I find sporadic times of inspiration and motivation, start to exercise, and because of my propensity for pushing too hard, I break something in my body. I seem to forget that my current fitness level does not afford my body the ability to withstand the stresses of a workout I would have done many, many, many pounds ago.

This is all truly very stupid.  I have more reason than ever to get my health back on track and my energy up.  I know as I burn-out I find it harder to focus on both work and recreation.  The more I burn-out, the less I get done overall because I have spread myself too thin (There is some irony in that statement). All this then, makes me less motivated to get healthy. It really is a death spiral.

In my efforts to both get healthy and reduce my burn-out while doing so, I have learned that sometimes you have to almost fake it until you make it, in a sense.  No matter how dim that light at the end may seem, know that the light is still there. You must trust that the light is there and just keep doing the same iterative processes you have done before, even when you don’t feel like it.

It is along the lines of; Don’t just go through the motions, but if you have to, just go through the motions until you make it. Focus on a few basic routines, even if it hurts to do what seems mundane and tedious.  The routines you know get work done, are what you must focus on no matter how little fun and joy they may bring. You MUST also celebrate the small wins of completing a routine, again, no matter how small.  Remember, my idea of being better, by being worse applies to so many things including burn-out.

I am personally starting to see a doctor for some health issues, which I hope will lead to a healthier, more energetic me. And hopefully, this will help in decreasing my burn-out, as well as streamlining what I work on. At some point, no matter how healthy and organized I am, I will get burned out again. It is in my nature to do the things that cause it.  And when I do, I will continue to iterate over my steps above to push through to the other side.

Lather, rinse, repeat.


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